My goal recently has been to live fearlessly and live uniquely, but I keep failing… miserably. I even failed myself this past Sunday at church. The service was going to begin in a few minutes, and I couldn’t find my family. I searched upstairs in the balcony, outside, and downstairs. As I hurried through the lobby, I noticed two girls, around my age, that I have never seen before. They looked a little lost, almost like they were looking for someone. Now, I could have easily went up and introduced myself, but I was too afraid. What if they don’t like me? What if there’s an awkward moment? What if…? I looked back at them, knowing that no one else would talk to them, and went on my way. So, why didn't I stop, go back, and talk to them? I don’t know. And as I sit here writing this, I still don’t know why I didn’t talk to those girls- actually I do. I allowed fear to control my actions.
I’m constantly scared. What if i mess up? What if they don’t like me? What if it doesn’t go right? And that’s when we have to say, “I don’t care.” We have to say, “I don't care,” to what other people care about, so we can fully care about what really matters. There is so much to fear in life, and what other people think is not going to be on my Fear List.
And I say all this with a ton of confidence, but if I’m being real with you, I’m still failing. I’m really trying to not care, but I constantly mess up. I always tell myself that if I continue taking everyone’s opinions to heart, and totally ignore my own, I will be living in fear. Fear controls our lives. Most people don't ever escape their comfort zone or society’s zone, which I’m trying to do, because it's hard. If it was easy, everyone would do it.
When we push ourselves outside of our comfort zones, our life doesn’t have to be crazy. I mean, I live a simple life. I live in a small town. I have a smaller group of friends. We all go to church. I don't have many obstacles in my way in my day, so I’d say I have a simple life, but there's a difference between simple and ordinary. Having an ordinary life is the biggest thing we have to avoid. An ordinary and boring life can occur if we never push ourselves outside our comfort zone or society’s zone. SO the only way this Live Fearlessly. Live Uniquely. thing is going to work, is if I quit. I’m going to stop working so hard, and just let the One person that is totally fearless and totally unique take control of my life… that's Jesus. You don't have to travel, or be famous, or live a crazy life to live an extraordinary one. All you have to do is live fearlessly and live uniquely.